There was sort of a mental block too. I would always set goals for races and never accomplish them. I would come very close and always have a good time but I would see others results and wonder why I was not getting faster. I think subconsciously I was not trying hard as a runner because I didn't feel good enough and I didn't feel I was improving. Until now..
I had a realization while playing around on the net today. I was checking out some races I want to do and looking at old race times and saw something awesome. When I did my first 13k, the Tower of Terror race back in October of 2009, my time was 1:37:41. I don't really remember but I think the goal I made for myself was to sub 1:30. Then I looked at my Princess half results and saw that my time for the 10k split was 1:10:50. I did a little math and even though the distance was shorter I brought my pace down by about 30 seconds in 4 months..so I guess I am getting somewhere.
I learned a lot about myself as a runner during my Princess half training. I didn't train as much as I could have but I did have solid long runs and work myself up successfully to 13.1. My goal was to sub 2:30...didn't happen but I got real close!
I guess what I'm getting at is: I AM A RUNNER. I love running clothes; cute headbands, socks and sneakers. I love what running does for me; clears my mind, the way I feel after a run, how it gets me in shape. I love my running friends even if they are virtual lol. It doesn't matter if I'm not a turbo speed missile on the race course, I'm out there and enjoying myself and that's what is important.
While I was looking at the Walt Disney World marathon site today I felt a little discouraged and thought about maybe just doing the half that weekend. But no. I'm not going to just stay in my comfort zone. I know I can do it. I remember when a half seemed impossible!
Besides, running through all 4 parks is going to be one of the most awesome things I ever do. LOL.